A Lapse in Self

by Itami

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Darknight A raw exhibition in hardcore metal from the land of New Mexico, reminds me of bands like Spineshank, End and Cara Neir. Favorite track: A Veil to Birth the Earth.
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1.
I will sacrifice what it takes that I may survive Violence, reclusion, the blood of the tribe Through this we all may thrive A blade sunk deep, holy sacrifice A wound named youth, never. The code required of me A dagger bearing sleep For my salvation I must cull the herd Painted blood red, ire in these eyes that burn These words, my heart Made still a world of A mother's weight, borne with her eyes ..., that we may survive Our wrists Violence, such necessity This well dug deep No empathy The code required of me A dagger bearing sleep No love No empathy Snuff out the warmth in me The weight of a mother's eyes Swelling forth, this tear-stained tide Come of age upon the altar, a desperate offering To a god who does not answer his childrens' cries
2.
A path traversed again and again My stride grew long and reached across the seas Misery come again and again The sentence of our fathers' sin: to toil Samsara, this machine we call life The work of bearing wounds that will never heal No escape Find purpose in the pain Your cold embrace A state beyond rage All the dreams that were never our own The nails from our hands exhaled My crumpled body into your arms again Find me there, we will be shining with crippled glory never known
3.
The sickle blade of the moon rises A nightly harvest, your shadowed gaze haunting every dream Stand before me Make of my home a shallow grave Every memory, winding tendon The very curvature of autumn leaves holds your shape Your words: the sound of gnashing teeth We are each without innocence Let this alone be clear I have gazed into countless voids Yet it does not appear The demons of the day gather at the door My tattered wings a smoking shield, battered, spent and torn Your vision and my guilt The length of my halls and their deaf ears I reach out my hands but it does not appear When your spirit stares back, the features warp My jaw, my brow Offer tears, pound on my ribs Expel and again devour Let the door swing wide Bear witness to my own apparition White knuckles Shaken breaths Horns and halos near Call these names together and it will appear
4.
I Can Tell You About Pain: I can tell you about the ways that we can never understand what another needs The lies we tell, the roots we break My tears rain down like broken glass My body bears their mark The burning days that I cannot face Something in me that I cannot change This city gathers in at its edges At every corner the baying of hounds fill my ears Grinning mouths, flashing eyes Each enslaved to our own desires I can tell you about pain I never wanted to be born into a world that would hate me That would curl into avarice and yearn to hunt me down A panting deer, a caged bird whose song grows ever weaker A caged bird singing still This city gathers in at its edges At every corner the baying of hounds fills my ears Grinning mouths, flashing eyes I will not be a slave to my own desires Through my blood and tears I achieve eternal grace Through the rape of something holy within myself Wisdom through suffering The first lesson and the last Watch as the light opens up Every time I self destruct
5.
Hunger 05:09
All the riches of an honorable life denied My mouth wide, distending hate The tramps and beggars in my throat pouring forth To wrest the riches of the flesh, to wrest any moment of light To never speak your name again To never speak your name again You who the light walked with I will carry on Our perfumed days have all gone down in the east My palms turned upwards for fate's blades Their slow caress down the length of each and every arm To stumble across every yawning abyss Past your reach and swallowed whole To never speak my name again To never speak your name again You who the light walked with The table at which we sat My fruit gone rotten, my wine gone to vinegar I will carry on under your disappointed gaze The crushing waves of my yearning The embers of our years washed away Wash me away Were my hands always so bloodstained Did we always hate eachother so I would ask the soil itself, just this once But I know it cannot hear me anymore

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Recorded in 2022 across a busy year of shows. This represents how we have evolved as band and continue to progress

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released September 30, 2022

Recorded / Mixed by Andrew Godfrey
Additional art collaboration Andrew Calleri

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Itami Albuquerque, New Mexico

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Sebastian Ward - Bass/ Vocals

Carlos Jauregui - Guitar / Vocals

Eric Ortega - Guitar

Thomas Overholt - Drums

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